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[lazchan]

It's funny how life can take all sorts of twists and turns. You grow and step back and then stumble forward into something else. For me, I had friendships that I'd cling to with every bit of me; too scared to even let one friend go, even if it hurt to be their friend.

I recently stopped being friends with someone because they stopped being friends with me. I know it sounds simple, but... I still wanted to be friends with them. They closed themselves off from me once I told them something about myself and it hurt so much to be shunned like I was. So I simply removed them from messages and my friends list. I'm tired of being the one to reach out always and not getting even a hand out in return. If they can't accept me for what I am, then why am I trying to be friend with them?

It still hurts, though to push away something that meant so much to me.

Comments

[fouenpassant.livejournal.com]

*hug*
I'm sorry to hear that >_<

[evershadowangel.livejournal.com]

It's always hard to lose a friend, I'm sorry =(

*hughughughug*

[tabitha-dornoc.livejournal.com]

*snug* Friendships can get twisty like that. Perhaps it wasn't what you confided in them that made them drift away. And if it was, you know, you must know, that they weren't worth being your friend anyway.

[lazzchan.livejournal.com]

Yeah, they can... but the short of it was that this friend confessed their love to me and I told them that it wasn't possible, because of how I am. (broken in so many interesting ways XD) and apparently they had been in love with me for a long time.

After I told them the reason why I couldn't, they stopped talking to me.

[shinya-diey.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Sometimes I think it's better to be alone than fight for a friendship that is actually one-sided.

[nikitsuki.livejournal.com]

if this person can't understand your feelings then i don't think they were really your friend in the first place. It totally sucks but personally, i think you should just let it go for now.

But, then again, maybe they just need some distance right now. If this person has loved you for a long time then maybe they need some time away from you to get those feelings under wrap.

I know I'm almost NEVER online anymore (i'm a slave to work which sucks ;_;) but if you ever need to chat, you shoot me an email and I'll come online asap. :D I miss talking with you!

[lazzchan.livejournal.com]

:) I'm totally just letting it go; I think that's what the journal was about. It's been some time since they stopped talking to me and just now they had removed me from their friends list. My friends told me that the friendship was bad for me anyway, because I'd worry myself sick worrying about them...they were always sick, had a crappy home life, etc. I just... *shrugs* I always hate losing a friend and I think it hurt because it was because of something I simply could not help.

>.> Oh well... (hugs) and thanks-- I miss talking to you, too!

[sylverdragonfly.livejournal.com]

Aww bb I'm sorry to hear that *hugs*