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[lazchan]

It's really strange--a year has gone by really fast, now that it's almost over. It's been a year full of ups and downs (and holy crap, all the stuff that happens at the end, lol) and it's been a great experience.

I think I've grown some since I've been here--but still the same me. I still am emotionally immature in a lot of ways, like I'm acting to a few people tonight--but...

Yeah. This year really had been an awesome one and I basically have a little over a month left until I go back to Utah. Three more weeks of classes--it's so strange to realize that it's coming to a close, my chapter here in Japan. Still have lots of pictures to take and places to go and things to see--but we'll see how much of that gets done.

I know I'll miss it here, but I miss home, too. I miss having the same schedule as most everyone else, of being able to talk to people at normal times or go and hang out at someone's house. I was never a person that socialized a great deal, but I miss those times when I could.

I guess I really am a clingy child in many ways still.

Sorry for whining so much, Ash

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[syvia.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*

:/

No matter how often I leave the house or how many new experiences I try to make for myself, I've come to realize that I'll always be that semi-timid homebody who doesn't really give a damn and is happier staying in-doors.

I'm trying to learn to accept that, ignore everyone in my life who's telling me 'u r doin it wrong', and yet, not let my habits keep me from totally isolating myself from the world.

*hugs again*

I guess it's just being human.

[lazzchan.livejournal.com]

&hearts

Thanks for that. Right before I woke up this morning, I think someone in my dream told me to "resist my emo urges"

This is what I get for eating a cookie before dinner, playing TWEWY and watching Dead Like Me

It is being human, I guess. It's also human to want social interaction with people you can talk with.

And oh~ Zidane icon. XD

[kohakutenshi.livejournal.com]

I'm not really qualified to say much on the subject. I rarely go out myself, cause I'd rather hang in my room with my 'children' (BJDs) and create things.

But the only thing that's important is your individual happiness. If you're happy, then that's all that matters. I mean, what works for some, doesn't work for everybody, after all.

So...um...*hugs*? :3

[lazzchan.livejournal.com]

<3

True-- I was being emo last night *laughs* But I get into these moods every now and then.

[lostscore.livejournal.com]

*snuggles* You know I totally don't mind. Enjoy the rest of your time!

[lynxgriffin.livejournal.com]

I totally understand how you feel. Despite all the great things I've been able to do and see, I still really am most comfortable being at home or working on my own projects. But I think the important thing is that you've had these experiences at all! There are so many people who never even leave their home country or even their own state, so you're really fortunate, no matter how much you think you should have "grown" or however it works. ;) I'm proud of you!

[lazzchan.livejournal.com]

&hearts&hearts&hearts

That's exactly how it should go. Thanks~

[siu.livejournal.com]

Living out in a foreign country by yourself is hardly what I call being a clingy child. ;) You've achieved a lot, be proud. =)