*sighs*

I think I really hurt a good friend of mine--unintentionally. This is why I think I'm so selfish...by the stupid things I do. I am going out of town this weekend, and silly me.... I forgot it was Easter Sunday coming up. I tend to think of Easter in April. So I was going to spend half of my time in SLC with one friend, and the other half in Provo with another friend. I didn't think, was my problem. I was going to spend Thursday and most of Friday with one friend.. and I was hoping for Friday night with the other friend, and Saturday was going to be spent with all of them. My original intent was to spend Sunday with the first friend. Church and all. Then my roomie reminded me it was Easter, and I panicked. So I thought..make it easier and spend it with the one friend I hardly ever see. Well....when I suggested that, I inadveretly hurt my friend whom Im going DOWN to the area with. I realize that I was being selfish, and that I hurt her...and now I feel guilty, and crying. *sighs* I didn't mean to hurt her. It makes it seem like Im using her, and thats not it all. It looks really bad. It's...well, I don't like Easter in general, and being around a bunch of people during a big dinner would make me feel like an outsider. I don't know. Im going to spend Easter with my SLC friend, but I hope I didn't hurt her too badly.