Contemplative

[lazchan]

Things (I hope) are going better. Im stressed right now, with work and school and bills! And...what to do for the summer?! dum dum dum! I think I may have a place to stay, and I have a couple of months to get together the money to pay for it, as well as pay my last month of rent here in the dorms. I do not know how much longer I can work at my present job, though. It's not what I do, I could care less, but its the constant pressure to do things that are getting utterly ridiculous! *sighs* And it's getting to be the end of the year, I seem to be doing badly in my classes, and I'm homesick. I have to get together fin aid for fall, and it's hard--I have to mail out something to my parents, they have to send it back to me, and I don't know if its going to get back in time. I wish I had thought of it sooner, but.... *sighs* My fault, my folly. I have so much on my mind right now. I don't know how I'm going to handle it all. My parents can't really help too much, because they are in need of money themselves. Although I received a letter/card from my mother today, and she said she's sending something out at Easter. She's trying really hard.

I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong, but I'm trying to correct it. I just feel...cornered, lost in a way. Am I going to fail? Am I too childish, what? I have nightmares at night still.. one was of my father killing me. Not the best thing to dream in the world. A change from my usual nightmares.

I'm helping someone out at work tomorrow, although I really don't want to do so. She helped me out, though, and I really should return the favor to her. I work tomorrow, but she needed two hours covered. >_< Bleh. I hate working extra. I dislike working my normal shift! *sighs*

Okay, long entry from me. I shall stop this now, and go on with my life. ^_^

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[(Anonymous)]

Don't stress Trisha... this is normal. I wish I could tell you that it gets better, but sometimes it's still just as hard, just different. However, when things are rough, just remember that you have friends that care for you and support you. Some of them may be psycho penguin-lovers, but hey... all the more interesting, right? And if you need any grease and spooning done, feel free to use my mafia... you know the one.... *evil cackle*

The Masked Penguin