introspection

What were you in a past life?

These tests can be rather amusing, I've found out. Maybe it was class today, or the migraine I had for about .. oh.... 4 hours? *sighs* Other than that, the school day is over, we have 2 and 1/2 weeks... *facefaults* wow... that's soon when you look at it in that perspective. You know things are coming to a close when your food supply dries up, homework seems to be piling up, and the urge to skip class increases. ^_^ Naw, I don't think that way at all. My friends are being very cool to me by helping me in the food department. So now I believe I have enough for those remaining weeks. That's a VERY good thing. Did I mention food was not factored into my expenses?

I am hoping to get to SLC this weekend so I can bug the airport peoples to get me a cheaper plane ticket...hey, I have other things to pay for too! Meaning unpaid bills, rent...>_< I hate being poor. I know...if I kept my job.. but I'd rather keep my sanity and my grades at a decent level, and both were periously slipping into the danger zone. Is it a bad thing? I'm still struggling with that...esp. when I am short in cash, but I still think that I made the right choice. I'm selling a bunch of stuff, too--just so I can pay for things. Anyone want to buy some anime? ^^;

I've been talking to my family lately, and the more I talk, the more I wonder if they actually want me to come home. Not to mention I get paranoid everytime I think of certain family members. *sighs* It's a hard road to fight, and people say..'get over it.' "Let it go." But as much as I try, little fears keep popping up, and I try to force them away, telling myself there is nothing left TO fear.
^_^ Except the uncertainty of what is going to be done. *makes face* I hate failure. I know it seems as if I am giving up by going home, I simply cannot afford to live here at this time. So sue me... I miss my family and a decent meal. To not have to worry about scrimping for money. ^^; Am I a child? Yes.

My time right now is spent with packing, because yes... time is closing in on us fast, and best to get it done. I gave away books to a friend, then realized I had a whole other drawer full. Adi--when you read this... ^_^ There are several more books if you think your sister will want them.

It's so strange to think almost a year has passed since I left home and went to college. I'm the first one in my immediate family to do so, and it's obvious why my mother is pushing so hard for me to stay in a University or college setting. She's proud in a way, and wants to prove to people that our family is capable of it. Wow...sudden insight. ^_^

Enough rambling--I should take something for my headache and possibly eat something as well. I was given food, and one should eat when it is given to them. ^_^