me...

I seem to be falling in and out of moods. I feel like working, I feel like school, then everything drops. It's like Im only truly happy when I writing, creating something. It is an outlet to everything for me. I'm so stressed right now.

I don't know if I'm doing things right. I try--and then I don't even want to try. I'm falling downward--fast. The semester is almost over, and I don't want to, but already I have to look towards next year. Will I get the help I need. Will I get a room...a job... pay rent and buy food. I want to go home-but I can't fail here. It's been almost a full year since I've been home.

I just feel so depressed and stressed right now. So many thoughts going through my head... songs...feelings....I don't KNOW anymore!